one two three four~

this song is so so soothing, it's going to be my soundtrack for the week (esp when i'm all stressed out and everything haha) can't get enough of sesame street, really :D



off to buy birthday gift for my friend now *rush rush rush*

fallen~

how many times do i have to fall today? my goodness~

juz now i went to sitex08 which is an it exhibitiön held in expo. hmm.. come to tink of it maybe sitex stands for singapore it exhibition haha.. anyway back to the main story, i juz walked into the hall reading tis interesting brochure a gal passed to me earlier when i tripped onto a trolley tis guy was holding. argh! of coz i did the normal, i'm-fine-nothing-happened routine, picked myself up quickly and blend into the crowd! but man, tat was quite embarrassing!

then earlier i was running home from the bus stop frantically (coz i really3 need to pee haha) when i was so glad to see the common toilet nearby my condo's pool when i slipped in the toilet floor. i'd like to tink it's the post shower messines btw~ (ew! haha)

i seriously don't know wat's going on today? my arm's hurting from the recent toilet fall and my ego's bruising falling in the middle of the exhibition crowd but wth i'm gönna ignore those, it's the weekend after all. i wanna enjoy my weekend! *initiating brain shutdown in 5min.. wait let me bathe first, wat if it wasn't shower water? YIKES!*

post "holiday" syndrome

ok fine it was a business trip and not a HOLIDAY holiday, but it was in this really beautiful resort in bali (conrad hotel). although it was meant to be a series of meeting with our indonesian distributor and their dealers, nevertheless i can't help enjoying the very very blue sky and the wide wide WIIIIDE beach AND the neverending horizon~

when i reached there i realized how i miss bali (AND a holiday haha). i miss how green the padi field and how blue the sea there are...

anyways the meeting went according to the plan and even my new boss seemed to be in a very good mood albeit his habit of drinking just a lil' too much (it did contribute to his good mood though haha)

too bad i didn't have much personal time, after the series of meeting and talks we only had time to go to tanah lot. the scenery there was AMAZING~ it was great great GREAT! until it started raining. i think i totally jinx my trips to tanah lot, previously when i went there with my 2 other friends a couple of years back it rained too. this tanah lot actually is famous for its sunset since the sun will go down just behind the pura (temple) making it a somewhat postcard looking scene. o well maybe 3rd time's a charm? if i go there next time MAYBE it won't rain on me anymore? (stupid random probability bias haha)

during the last day my boss took the 1pm flight while i arranged for a 4.30 flight. he's going malaysia for another meeting while i'm returning to singapore. thought i would have enough time on my own to explore the kuta beach and do some last minute shopping~ so i hitchhiked one of my indonesian counterpart and her dealer to go kuta at about 12ish by a chartered taxi. she said she needs to go to the bookstore for 15 min to do a short market visit (which i'm fine with, hey it's just 15 min right) but NOOOOO the taxi driver got us LOST LOST LOST! hahaha! it was ironically funny coz we were going round and round this Jalan Gatot Subroto but we couldn't find the so called PLAZA. and btw bali has this regulation that buildings cannot be higher than the palm tree soooo the "plaza" was practically a 2 story puny building tucked in a corner somewhere. took us HOURS to find this plaza (which btw was so obscure that the locals living around the area doesn't know about its existent o_0)

in the end i didn't have time to visit kuta beach and my shopping plan went up in smokes. o well, at least i know 2 nice people at the end of the "city tour" (we were joking about that in the cab while we were lost). had to do my last minute shopping getting ripped off at the airport. told myself i'm helping out greasing the wheel of economy in indonesia by contributing my S$ at the airport hahaha~ :D

all in all i still enjoyed the trip very much. thought it was a great break from the normal yawn worthy meeting and everything. must thank my indonesian distributor for inviting us (me?) for the trip~ can't believe i was making such a fuss for getting dragged for this trip last minute about a week ago (haha!) see, sometimes we have to view things more positively, not every change is BAD and even when it doesn't go as your plan, there are those times when you'll gain more than your original plan! :)

i love bali, hope to be back soon!

the view from Conrad Hotel lobby




















what a cozy room




















the porch behind the room that interconnects to the main pool! (swimming trunks not incl. haha)




















look who i found crawling around in the bathroom! (he's MINE! *put in luggage! kekeke..)




















these frangipani flowers are everywhere in bali! so nice! :D




















tanah lot from afar...



























religious ceremony in tanah lot~




















more photos :)

starting to shöw

i'm juz way töo tired these days,not much time to pause and rethink if the things i churn out are even passable. At these kind of time i feel empty, somehow lacking something in my life. I try not too much about it thöugh, no time to feel down or anything. Until next Thursday is over i juz have to be a running engine.

Can't really lie to myself though, i really still feel empty.. Hmm...

Funny (pathetic? Hehe..) though, this morning while being swamped with work I took some time to eat cup noödles for my breakfast and I was so happy hehe.. Happiness is in a cup of instant nöodles? You bet~

overtime... overdrive...

tonight i left the office at 21.50 coz i have tons of work i have to complete. even after going back late i was unable to finish all too (duh). anyway interestingly i find the staying late at the office kinda fun (wat are you, sick in the brain??? haha). it reminded me of those days back in uni just before the exams, cramming as much information as possible. or maybe one of those nights just before a class presentation :D

maybe i just like the quietness of the office, doing my ppt slowly while listening to some soft music... i kinda miss school all over again :)

oh a late phone call cheered me up, ms ang called me to chit chat (see, even more i feel like i was back at school! hehe), she told me i'm such an ernie (think sesame street) really? *poke poke* hehe~

thanks for brightening my tiring evening, ms ang!

cheers,

ernie! :D

change in the family!

sometimes we don't welcome changes right away as something positive. maybe it's human intuition, to reject changes and all? (pretty much like the antibody with foreign object that enters our body? ok bad analogy haha, the talk about avian flu today at the office left its mark in me!) there was some organizational change that happened in the office and almost everyone was not too thrilled to hear the news (me included) but maybe it's an initial reaction? the whole journey to the unknown kicking in more than anything else.

let's see if it will turn out positive in the future. i'm rather apprehensive but who knows right? here's for hoping that it'll come out okay in the end :)

Avenue Q

after much contemplation i have decided to watch Avenue Q~ so excited to wait until saturday to watch it. today must be one of those weird days when things just come out plain odd? bought tickets for SUNDAY when it was supposed to be SATURDAY! (brain wasn't working properly then) while waiting for the long queue at sistic to ask if i can change the date in the tickets, i decided to do plan B and C haha.. so i called 2 of my friends if they want to buy my wrong tickets but they needed to think first -_-" by the time they said they agreed to buy the tickets, i was already in front of the queue changing the day to saturday.

so now a quiet Avenue Q afternoon with 2 friends is revised to a FUN afternoon with a bunch of friends (5 of em in total now). o well i think it's a show to watch with plenty of friends, all crazy and rowdy i suppose :)

*hum hum* the internet is really really great *FOR POOOOORN* hahahhaa :D

stressed out?! am NOT!

which drunkard will admit they are too right? haha.. well i must admit that i'm under a lot of stress at the office these days. things are getting crazy and work is piling up. can't seem to have enough time to do everything and those that i did seem to be somewhat below par also. to put everything into perspective yes i do try to do the best i can but i'm not sure if it's even passable. i have a feeling people expect more of me but then again maybe it's just a feeling...

so the other day i had another bad case of headache again, seems like the back of my head was throbbing and i couldn't think straight. when i went to the doctor, she gave me the strangest advice. maybe you should relax a little bit, get a massage once a while and not get too stressed out.

in the end i went home to catch some sleep *only to be woken up by a phonecall from my indian counterpart asking for something which is a bit impossible from our end*

anyway i'm having second (or third or fourth or fifth iuno?) thought about this job i'm doing. on one end i do like this job coz it gives me the opportunity to learn and i feel that the learning curve is still very steep but then again on the other end of the plate there is me struggling with what i'm doing. it's been 8 months and i think i'm still lagging on certain things that i think i should mastered much much earlier.

how am i doing i wonder.

what do my colleagues think.

i seriously think i can do better.

elsewhere?

maybe~

it's the weekend and i'm thinking about all this sh*t, gawd i really need to chill a lil'... *sigh*

space and time

ok so it's been 3 months plus since the last time i blogged. not that there aren't many things happening, just that these days i'm so tired that i don't feel like blogging. in fact these days i pretty much don't feel like doing anything much

*sigh*

i just need some space and time i guess~