the quest for ms right

the theory of relationship

guess wot i'm bummed. every other person is actually attached and yours truly here is apparently still single. i suppose everybody has their reasons to get attached, the same way every person has their motivation in living. some people want to have someone to share their problems with, some want to have people to spend time with, there are also others who want to have someone to accompany them during social meetups and of coz there are even those who are in a relationship only for the status. whatever it is i think plunging yourself into a relationship would require a certain amount of courage. don't you think it needs a handful amount of committment and determination, that my friend, require what you call "GUTS"!

so what if the girl you've been waiting for hasn't come into that door and the chick you wanna wait now & forever til ocean's apart hasn't walked your way yet. *yes i'm trying to be positive here by adding the word "yet"* sometimes what you need to do is break down that door and part the ocean to find ms right. *kinduv drastic huh*

but then again finding ms right is like a game of "police and thief" *used to play this game when i was a kid; basically you have to guess who is the thief amongst a group of friends while they indistinctly give signals* you'd have to make a wild guess who the person is. and when you think you found the person sometimes you just chicken out *pok3* either that or you contemplate so much that other "police" would've caught that "thief" and you're left muttering curses under your breath.

it's interesting really. you can actually think about why people initiate a relationship in a micro economics way. maybe because there is demand then there is supply *that's classic method fyi*. so basically we frantically look for ms right because we feel the need to do so, we feel that ms right will be able to complete our lives.

however there is another opinion of the keynesian method that says "the demand is created by supply of goods". you want to be in a relationship because there is someone whom you think as ms right happens to be tip toeing in your life.

odd really to try and hypothesize the whole theory of why people would want to be in a relationship. i mean c'mon why would you want to theorize it at the first place? mmm i think i've got too much time in my hand. better get myself ms right soon. haha... sadly i'm more to the keynesian person. shucks.

my id and i: a conversation

i'm just a fool
just an antisocial fool
i'm not pleasant
never been that good with words

although i might look friendly
might sound like your pal
but that's when you're wrong
bitter is who i am

if you say i'm nice
i'm not your friend
if you say i'm friendly
you're prolly just an acquintance

coz my friend knows i'm a fool
within just an antisocial fool
who's nothing but friendly
and everything about bitter

if love is blind

story of a desperate loser

sometimes when you are in love you lie to yourself. you choose to believe in a world that you created to hide the truth. it hurts when your friend gives you a reality check; that person whom you think have a certain mutual feelings to you somehow seems to be unlikely to like you back. it's odd...

honestly, i feel empty.

but i guess life goes on. thanks for regurgitating what i need to understand, i do need a third person's perspective. i suppose it's never meant to be. it's just me myself and my imagination after all. let me wallow in this facade just for tonite. tomorrow's a different story altogether.

we are wat we eat

this is so cosmo don't you think? waaatever... *roll eyes*

i think human "wastes" most of their lives worrying what and where to eat, don't you agree? just last week a friend nudge me a few times asking where to bring his love interest for dinner. in my opinion, first impression is everything and the restaurant you pick really matters. it basically "pigeon hole" you to the right spot or maybe not. *SHUDDER* so here goes a list of totally bias opinion of good ol' spie_dee himself:

japanese
not sure why the whole notion of eating dead raw fish euphimistically called "sushi" or "sashimi" is categorized as food for the intellectuals. guys who don't indulge in this delicacy just won't do for certain ladies

western/ fine dining
these guys are of a certain class and they don't mind splurging on gals. are they unconfident so that they need ex food to swoon the gals over? fine dining as a first date would seriously give the phrase "SHOW ME THE MONEY" a totally different angle

western/ fast food
practical *ahem* that's another word for saying cheapskate fyi

south east asian/ chinese
pretty homey guys who like to spend time at home, pretty much a family person. gals ready climbing the aisle should be very happy being invited to a restaurant of these genre.

other exotic choice
it can vary from brazillian, mexican, indian, etc actually. probably guys who like to choose these restos for their first dates like to experiment on new things, they like to gamble and see how the outcome will be. let's just hope they don't like to experiment on new type of gals. haha...

so which category would you want to be?

FINALLY! SOMEONE HATES MY GUTS!!!

bring it on.

this story is fictional and any type of resemblance to any personal would probably be coincidental and does not have a certain purpose of doing so. :D well my indonesian friends do not read my blog anyways, so i'm pretty much safe. but then again it's all fictional right? right-o.

and so i have a very close female friend since university time and we've known each other for about 5 years plus. basically we tell each other everything under the sun and more. aaaanyway she recently got attached and after a couple of months' relationship it's pretty odd that this guy almost never goes out with her friends. whenever she goes out with her friends, the boyfriend would go out with his friends. pretty normal? not if it happens too often i suppose.

well she told me the reason the other day by the way. turns out her boyfriend hates my guts. woohoo! he simply just "does not like my face and the very existence" of me. whoa! that's pretty direct and straight to the bullseye if you ask me.

you wanna know what's our reaction? we LAUGHED out so loud we almost stumbled off our chairs... hey, i know i'm not the best looking guy around *i don't wanna say the U word la* and i realize i'm a bit on the chubby side but come ON give me some slack will ya? you don't need to hate my face and the very existence of me. hey i don't mix business and pleasure. don't get all jilted in jealousy over me okay. iuno how he gets the notion that i'm a big buaya.

well i'm nice if you want me to... *see that halo?*

but of coz i can be nasty too, VERY nasty...pass me the fork and i'll grow a tail of my own... if you want me to, only if you want me to dude *GRIN* *MEOW*