夏天的聖誕節

this song never fails to soothe me... do give it a listen :)

i'm still in a very christmasy mood. it's probably my favourite holiday, don't know why really. maybe it's just the whole cozy feeling and nice weather.

as you all know singapore at this end of the year is filled with sale and discounts in almost every shop here. i've always enjoyed walking about alone, just with my mp3 player doing window shopping around. but i realized something during this year's xmas: shopping (even window shopping) with no money kinda suck! seriously! haha~

it just sucks to know that the "maybe" factor is out of the equation during these window shoppings. you kind of know at the back of your mind that you either can't afford it or you don't really need it (at this point of time). so yeah, here i am in singapore, the land of (supposed) sale whereby everybody (well almost) is grabbing every single item on the shelves and there i was not giving those items a second glance :D

i guess this year i'll stick with my cheap entertainment: the national library

dum dee dum~

i'll be home for christmas

if only in my dream...

as far as i remember this is one of my very few christmas times away from home. of course there was one about a decade ago when i first arrived in singapore but all 35 of us were "stranded" together so it didn't feel that lonely. i must be honest that this year's is exceptionally heart breaking (for lack of a better word)

i suppose it's not really the obvious fact that i'm not with my family during this christmas time but more of a feeling deeper inside. maybe it's the holding hands snuggling sights of couples all over singapore enjoying the cozy festive feel? *a lil jealous? haha* maybe also it's the nice christmas feel around singapore and no family member to share with? OR maybe just maybe it's *AGAIN?* the feeling of uncertainty where i want to go in the next year *supply chain? marketing?* not only where i WANT actually but more of which door will open for me, in that sense. *hopefully both? so that i have the leisure of choice? see, another uncertain factor looming ahead*

i guess i just miss the feeling of being at home, feeling the comfort of slouching in that all too familiar space of a living room, eating home cooked meals. i also miss the feeling of being in my church. you know it's quite strange, i remember clearly last year attending the christmas service in my church back in jakarta, when i arrived i sat down and looked around thinking "i'm actually at home during christmas, i wonder if i would be here next year". ironically here i am sitting in my small rented room alone looking at my laptop screen :)

having said that i must say that i'm grateful that i'm in singapore, i just completed my mba course and everything is fine. yes there are many avenues ahead but i'm just that much grateful for everything that i have gained at this point in time in my life.

well i guess what i'm trying to say is this year's christmas isn't going to be the same. but i'm trying to look at the bright side of things. i want to sleep early tonight and who knows *sigh* i MIGHT be home for christmas, "if only in my dream..." (special thanks to lisa ono for serenading my sleep tonight)

merry christmas to all :)

21st november 2007

this is actually an entry i have wanted to posted (and DELAYED) for about a month or so. 21st november 2007 was my last day as a student of nus. it feels so strange writing that and let me tell you it felt even stranger being there on that supposed last day. as some might have known, i had wanted to do my masters in nus ever since i finished my bachelor back in jakarta. the thing is that it ended so fast made it feel so... unreal?

so many things happened here, the usual ups and downs. i suppose the world is never rosy anyways. most importantly i would like to think that another chapter of my life is done and now i'm just so looking forward to what's in the next chapter? (yeah, WHAT?)

whatever it is, i'm just glad that one step was done and i would like to think i did it quite adequately. of coz there were a few things that i hoped i didn't do or would do differently however all in all i think it was part of life :)

here's a few pics of my former daily lives with my so called alma mater...

pic 1. staircase that leads to NUS
pic 2. pathway that leads to bus stop from NUS
pic 3. my last "shot" of NUS

525,600 minutes (part one)

been busy searching for a room to rent for my student that i remembered this song i really liked from the musical "rent" (har har) but seriously, that's how it came about! i wish i could tell you in a more glam way but that's how it was! haha..

seasons of love.. it talks about how do you actually measure a year? in that 525,600 minutes of a year under many circumstances. when you're up and sometimes when you're also down? when you look back 5 years or maybe 10 years even from now. what will you remember and look back upon that 525,600 of those minutes?

the year 2007 is ending soon and 2008 in unfolding very fast now, i hope it's going to be "a season of love" for me...