lost in words

this is insane, it's been 3 weeks since i have written an entry in my blog. it's not that there isn't anything eventful these days, in fact there are so many things going on at the same time i haven't got the time to put them into words. first exam is coming this saturday *eeekk* i hope i'll be able to maintain my previous CAP, i'm not even thinking of getting anything better. come on, a lil' reality here...

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need."

a friend was telling me about this quote from the tv series grey's anatomy. although i haven't got the time to watch the show, i've decided to nevertheless write it here. don't you think it's so true?

sometimes we hope that people understand how we feel and what we need, we ASSUME so many things and when things don't happen as expected we become so disappointed with those people. during those times i guess what we need to do is just say it. we refrain most of the times. *well i do* how many times have you contemplated and think "hey, he/she should know better!"? we expect others to read between the lines and understand. *sigh*

it's ironic isn't it. words is a mean of communication to express what we think or feel but there are so many times when the meaning gets lost in the words we try to say. and there are times when we hope we can take back the things we have just said. maybe we should observe the little human and see what we can learn from them...

if you see the "anus" *

poke for it!

i'm running for the post of Director of Finance and Administration for the NUS MBA club (student council probably?), ahem strike out the fluffy and sugar coated name, read the job desc and what you get is basically secretary + treasurer :D

i think of it as a rare chance because a friend called me to give an advise or two about the benefits of holding a post in the club. it's quite strange i must say because i have always thought of contributing my part for the school? somehow it sounds so corny huh? *shruggs* i meant what i said period.

seems like no one is running for the position looking at the job desc which basically lists meticulous and tedious jobs that no one wants to handle. i suppose most people are more interested in doing something that is visible, *almost* tangible and recognizable by others. geeky jobs like this *< -- or so i would like to believe* in a weird manner kind of entice me. harlow, remember my previous job? when people were complaining how boring it was, i kept quiet thinking inside that it wasn't that bad actually :p

but the interesting part started when i was talking with my friend ms tinyripples yesterday. told her that for the past few days i've been consciously telling myself to be nice to people. not really to win their votes; more not to look bad and get an evil eye in the podium during the debate actually *har har*

me : "yeah at least til the election is over"
tr : "are you serious?"
me :""yes"
tr :"o my god, you're such a politician"

can you believe i said that? freudian slip at its best. honestly i couldn't believe i said that either. hmmm i suppose i should try to change this mentality, it's just not right. 'hypocritical' is the word. if i ever want to change and be a better person at school it should be because i'm actually to represent the students in a more general manner. i feel to do so i would like to be a more wholesome person without diluting my own personality in the process of coz.

just a thought that cross my mind; i hope i don't lose her vote mmm.... hahaa... just kidding :D

* ps: blog keeper's name has to do with some biological organ of the human species and animal in general fyi