the trouble with being single

when the world stop revolving
the cars start to slow down
the city lights shimmer in a dim way
and the people does not pace as fast

i stood there alone
and i wonder
why am i by myself
and again i question

i hope the tears would flow
and the feelings show
i wish everybody knows
the state i am in

but i can't wipe the smile
and the laughter still echoes
who am i kidding
it's me i'm amusing

open your eyes
the people still pace as fast
and the city lights are that bright
so is the car and the world that revolves

so move on
pace up
gear up
maybe there's someone up front

a poignant street play...

"how are you?"

yesterday i was driving alone to the gym after work and at one traffic light i saw a street boy, not more than 8 years old carrying his sister who was probably still 2 or 3 years old. it was definitely a touching sight...both of them were extremely dirty, wearing tattered and unkept clothes but i can see that they were enjoying each other's company. the boy went on hugging the little sister happily, not caring the people and vehicles around them...it was almost "beautiful", i even wanted to take a picture but the traffic light turned green before i got my hands on my digicam :(

*sigh* i guess that is what you call true happiness...you know sometimes we get that, 5 minutes of pure true happiness in our busy irritatingly sucky day. it makes your whole day of cursing and being cursed at worth while...

sometimes i think that's the problem with the society; we are expected to move forward ALL the time. when we stand still and take a deep breath, that would mean we are not using our full potential. is that true? highly arguable probably.

let's try to cherish those moments when we ignore our surroundings and are able to enjoy ourselves immensely without caring the world that is revolving around us. take the time to ask ourselves: "how are you?" and attempt to answer it honestly and unabridged.

my thoughts at 20.00 pm

so tired
to the point of exhaustion
there is no point
nothing is forever
not love, not friends, not family
not you and definitely not me
does anything matter?
your wrong is just today
or a week at the very most
your good does not even last
til the sun is down
as i said before
there is no point
so what is the point?
maybe i'm just tired
there's no use feeling sad
coz your tears aren't going to last
happiness is futile
since your happiness is just for a while
why are we working so hard?
if what we achieve is just for today?
yes, why do we exhaust ourselves so much?
live for today
and die happy tomorrow
coz your happiness ain't gonna last

i don't care what people think of me..

aaawwww reaaalllyyy???

a friend at the office just turned from doctor jackyl to mr hyde after his promotion...all of the sudden work mates suddenly need to work extra hour *and mind you, without getting extra pay!* almost everyday...i'm not talking about 1-2 hours here..there are times that they go back at 10 plus...well he turned nasty to everybody almost instantly after his promotion *of coz to ALMOST everybody...just those of the lower level in the management..but of coz right*

i approached him one day and told him that he is not particularly loved by his subordinates...he said he was there to do a good job and not to win any popularity contest so he practically does not care what people think of him...it was quite a good day for me so i didn't end up telling him that he isn't doing a good job at work either, wouldn't want to spoil it by arguing about other people's matter..

it got me thinking...am i still very purile and euphoric to think that it is possible to be friendly AND do a good job at the same time? let's put it in a more general term. i'm speaking as attitude in life in general, not only at work...some people are so selfish and only care for themselves, are they wrong?

there was a point of time when i also thought it would be better to care for myself and excel in everything that i do...but after a couple of months, i realized that it is very important also to have companionship and be friendly where it is possible...to excel in what you do is of course an achievement but i think it is also essential to gain respect by people...

but then again he's a manager and i'm a supervisor...haha...

quote of the day

"why worry about tomorrow if today is uncertain?"

--- spie_dee

significant name...

caleb paul indradi