the world still revolves - maturity

one step closer

it's pretty odd i must say. i thought when your dreams are dashed into pieces it'll feel worse than this but if i must comment then i was "okay". for the past five years what i've wanted nothing more than to return to singapore for further studies and my chances (or so i thought) were quite respectable. however just last week i received a phone call from my mum that said my application was unsuccessful due to...well i didn't really bother to listen nor read the rest of the letter, i actually got the whole point judging from that "unsuccessful" word. they must sugar coat it and make it sound less painful - "it's not you, it's the mountainous amount of people and the limited seats in the uni that made us unable to accept you THIS time." it's one thing if each and every one gets a different personalized reply but it's another if there are hundred others who receive the same thing. (it's quite satirically laughable if i think about it again actually) so if you excuse me: har har..

haven't felt this disappointed for a very long time i think coz since i'm in indonesia everything has been quite smooth sailing with no significant turbulance. then when i was in a business trip out of town, i received these kinduv news, it was definitly not easy. i still had to meet the customers and convince them that i am this expert person from jakarta who were there to listen to their complains and hopefully able to supply a solution for further business plans ahead. "i still have to walk on. no time to stop and ponder. just take a deep breath and use your senses. nothing has changed. accept the rejection."

there'll be other chances next time. i suppose this rejection is good in a way.

i am one step closer to being an adult.