the world is too result oriented (anyone dare to say otherwise?)

the end is never the end before the(e) end

i suppose not so many people quite like the idea of having a sudden change; something that is so abrupt, foreign and pretty much unfamiliar isn't exactly one that is wanted. probably people are so content with their current situation that when a shift is needed *or rather done* it is like pulling a rug under their feet?

yesterday a colleague leaked out the gossip of the month (it is supposedly a secret no one other than the higher management people is supposed to know..and yes the keyword here is "supposedly") remember that friend who is a stuck up manager? well he is going to be fired next monday right after the hari raya holidays. it came as such a shock since no one quite expected it. well he was quite incompetent for the last few months because he was always ill and even skpped work a few times (too many times if you ask me, but he WAS sick) due to stress and overexhaustion. the problem is i suppose the bosses oversees his whole attempt but rather the results of his work instead which are not really worth the mention. c'mon the guy was making vomitting sound every other second, how on earth do you expect him to be able to pass up a decent report?

in my opinion this whole case is sad. on one hand you have this man who is happily spending his one week holiday in his hometown, pretty much contented with everything since his wife of one year is at the moment four months pregnant and his job can be considered as stable, considering the facilities he has received. btw he is also currently installing a house in one of the better parts of jakarta. whereas on the other this very same person is going to be "let go for better opportunities" on his first day of work next week. i don't know how his reactions would be when he hears this news on monday, i don't think i dare to say anything to him.

part of me wants to say that it serves him right for treating his subordinates so badly but of course i also pity him coz i know he has tried his best in doing his job. it's just not good enough? think about it, there are parents who tell their children that the most important of doing anything is putting your heart in it and doing your best rather than doing better than all the other kids. well reality check for you all parents and future parents - it's not! apparently our world is so shallow as to appreciate results so much more than attempts. call me shallow, call me dumb but i myself appreciate my subordinates who pass up their reports on time and with a certain standard rather than those who stays overtime daily. don't we all? pretty hard to say i guess. as much as i want to believe that it's the attempts that counts, i know that it's not true.

sometimes i worry. it's been nagging me, what if i was to be put in his shoes. to have tried everything that i can but in the end of the day still considered not worthy enough of people's respect and acceptance?

maybe a bow and one step backward would be much more appreciated? or is it the fight til the end that would be more respectable? it's 2.30 am now and i still can't fathom the reason why i'm feeling so depressed over other people's problem. maybe i just want to be more prepared if ever the rug under my feet is pulled? well there is always a continuation after the whole 'fall' coz the world doesn't end there, you still have to get up after it. a 'fall' is natural, something that can happen and will probably happen in everybody's life (harlow blame it to the 9.87 m/s2 gravity..har har, corny huh?) but sometimes it's how you get up from the fall that counts also coz it's the results that count right? i suppose it's never the "end" until the(e) end. *sigh*