what's wrong with you?

erm..yeah, what's wrong with me?

so i have this friend who every now and then tells me that he is not so comfortable with himself. there was one time when he asked me if it is possible for him to change? of course not in appearance but in terms of personality. is it possible? good question i think. being a person who has tasted the singaporean *KIASU* education i shall approach this question as: "to a certain extent..."

*do you notice that history and literature classes are filled with this line? it's never a "yes" or a "no"*

change in personality? the initial question i ask was "what's wrong with you?", despite his answer explaining that he doesn't quite like himself i quietly asked myself "erm...yeah, what's wrong with me?" and i muttered to myself "i'm single?" my mind stopped with a screeching halt, wait, is it so wrong being single? there must be something not right if the whole world is attached and you are not, right?

maybe it's something like choosing your badminton partner during a PE class, the only kid left out is most probably the most unpopular one. the whole class has a partner and even the naughtiest nastiest nose picking pants peeing dirty minded boy in the class has a badminton partner and that one little boy is the odd one out. there must be something really wrong right? *shruggs* don't ask me, this whole blog entry seems like a big memoir of my past. har har..

i think being a 25 year old male in the world is not easy, and being a 25 year old SINGLE male in the world is even harder. when you go to the malls you will tend to see the couples walking side by side, holding hands, cuddling or doing whatever couples do. *roll eyes* lemme tell you, it's not EASY! it's called peer pressure i suppose?

back to the first question, "can i change?" i, for once shall change my mind and alter the question a little bit *can you do that in lit classes???* to a smarter one - "is there a need to change?" if there is nothing wrong to change then is there a need to change?

rhetorical question.

the thing is sometimes you should not change the "wrongs" and alter the "not rights" in you. everybody has a different perspective of the rights and wrongs, what we singles *just like the kraft cheese product* would need to do is to wait. yeah, you heard me right, we have to wait for someone who thinks that our wrongs are not so wrong and our rights are never that right either. i think we should appreciate what we have, we are who we are, TRY to be comfortable with our own skin and do the best we can to make sure we are "okay". what's the point of trying to change on the surface; to talk more, to be more eloquent with people of the other gender, etc if inside we are still the same person. change is not a thinking process, it comes more naturally. it needs TIME.

so the next time that friend asks me again - "can i change?" i shall answer, "yes you can but not if you want to"