The Clock That Goes Backward

Jay Chou - The Clock That Goes Backward

i suppose at least at one point of time a person will hope the clock will be able to move backward; to savour the memory of time gonebys or at least what is left of it. but maybe what we want is not the past but we are worried of the uncertain future. just yesterday i paused in my car and took a moment, maybe wanting to take a mental picture of my car and my current condition; of how i look, how i feel and what i am thinking about.

do you know i was thiiiis close for not leaving singapore, sometimes we are given a very hard choice and when we make that decision we're unsure whether that's the best one to make. but ask yourself, who are we to decide whether the option is 'right' or 'wrong'. and i bet there are times years after the incident when asked whether you'll do it again you reply smilingly "well i might not do it again but the experience was definitely not a bad one either"

as an example, i met some of my closest friends in the university i did not choose initially. it's funny i guess, because i will give you a dead definite "NO WAY" when asked about the university i chose before that. but it all turned out alright i think, more than that now i feel that it was the right decision made. sometimes what we need is time. (although most of the time we are lacking in them and thus we after a long - believe me LOOOOONG time we realize it)

so if you can turn back the time will you go back and change anything? hmmm will i? i dun think i can give a definite yes or no answer but i definitely feel that up to this point everything falls to places where they're supposed to? what about you?