personal disaster

life can be such a car crash sometimes. you know you're not doing the right thing but the moment you realize it, you're already knee deep...

*sigh* there are times when our small pleasures in the world can be so costly. you kind of know that it'll end up ugly but for momentary things, you are willing to ignore everything and just look up and be dazzled at the fireworks for a while.

*laugh* it's so tragic and yet funny. in a way you know when the last firework pops it's light and glitter you're gonna face the harsh reality. but you know what? i'm tired of thinking what to do, what to decide.

let me just have my hands off the steering wheel for a while and enjoy this beautiful disaster...