explain.

my internship started last monday and so did the special term classes, these days my schedule is almost as insane as it was back in jakarta. usually i come home not wanting to see my laptop anymore and straight head to the bed to do light reading or get some sleep. it's good in a way though, it keeps my brain busy rather than thinking unnecessary things that depress myself too much

so this week i've been thinking, why is it so important to keep a certain image in front of others? we sometimes sacrifice so much things just so that the person next to you think you are such a nice person. but there are times when it's not worth explaining? maybe because the person you're talking already has a certain perspective of you and feels hesitant to alter his/her opinion? or (in my case) i'm just simply too tired.

i guess it's my bad habit, when i'm exhausted my point of indifference marginally shifts significantly. in short, i'm just too tired to explain things i feel unnecessary.

maybe some will see me as selfish. call me self centered. anything.

but i hope if they're really my friends, the least they can do is to understand me better. (but the question pops out, the least i can do is to understand them <-- chicken and egg) but you know what? my brain is just not working anymore. let them think what they want.