part of the puzzle

i'm still searching for my part in my new job. maybe it's the feeling of insecurity? or it might just be for my own self indulgence? i always like to know that i'm a part of the puzzle. at the moment i'm still finding out which place do i belong to but i can feel that i'm slowly shaping towards the (supposed) right direction. is it the direction that i want though? i wonder~ i seriously wonder hmm~

some people say they love their jobs so much, they wake up excited going to work. at the moment i'm not feeling it yet *sigh* not that i drag myself out of bed to get to work though but i somehow feel that i can do so much more than just this. but trust must be earned and probably the company needs time to see how i really tick. maybe in due time, more responsibility will be passed to me?