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my MBA experience will end in about 1.5 months and i'm wondering have i done enough? looking back some might ask if i would do it all over, i'd tell them most definitely. but if they ask if there's anything i would want to change, unfortunately i would have to say many. *shrugs* i suppose at this point of time, i can't really give a model answer of 'i wouldn't change a thing for everything that happened has built me the way i am today'.

*smile* yesterday i was having a conversation with my friend about how i like to do things for people. strangely enough today i had a class that ask about our priority in life and my top 3 were being well respected, sense of accomplishment and warm relationship with others. another friend even pointed out that most of my options are more external? it's a rather justification from other parties rather than self. strange? uhuh...

stupid

simple word that sums up my behaviour i guess. think about it? why do i need someone else to gauge how well i am doing. maybe i haven't reached the top of the marslow pyramid? *shrugs*

as human we seem to over complicate matters so for example you have 9 people who appreciate you (or seem so at least haha!) and 1 who couldn't care less. you worry why this 1 person thinks that way and feel negative about yourself. i did write it countless of times that we should be grateful of what we have.

maybe it's like trying to satisfy a parent in a way sometimes. you keep on doing numerous things to make them happy but their reaction is always a constant ignorance? you know how i answer to this?

stupid.

no other word describes me better than that. haha~ *sigh*