still alone

so i chatted today with a university friend i haven't talked for quite some time. he asked me why i was so close to this girl but nothing ever happened between us. sparks seemed to fly, everything went well but in the end... there was nothing to be said. he asked me if i had feelings for her? tough question. did i have feelings for her? yes? no? maybe? it did cross my mind to be more than friends at one point of time but the mind was stronger than the feelings i guess. it was rather impossible to initiate anything at that time.

sometimes i think... am i asking too much? coz i've nothing much to offer either. am i pushing my luck? perhaps, but what if somehow it doesn't feel right; do you still go on? will there be the "right" one? will i have to be satisfied with someone else when the "right" one doesn't appear?

you know what, i think i just want to enjoy my life. not to think too much about this. when it's time it's time. i will know if it's her i think. i do seriously hope so. let's take it step by step.