one step closer to the ledge...

morbid nite...

if you have to take one advice from me it would be "slow haunting songs are really bad to hear in the car..especially at nights.."

yesteday i went home at about 10.40 pm and as i drove through the nearly empty streets the song "with or without you" by u2 played...one of my personal favourites...my mind started to wander off...

wouldn't it be nice to actually stand on top of one of those brightly lit skyscrapers...eyes closed you could feel the wind on your face...so strong that it ruffles your hair...the air so fresh it is intoxicating...

when you look up you feel so small...the numerous stars staring back at us, the sky soooooo wide you can't see where it ends or even guess where it begins...the horizon is sooooo far and the moon so blue..so breathtakingly blue and pretty...*sigh*

and after that you look down...the city...jakarta city...with all the small cars buzzing so fast...the city lights so colourful...the sight could have been in a postcard somewhere *chuckle* 'hypnotic' is the term for it i suppose...

so quiet...could not hear any sound...maybe this is what they call 'serenity'...unusually calm standing on a building so high...so so so very high for any common sense...what will happen if i take another step towards the picturesque sight? run...maybe i should run to it, as if fearing it might disappear...as i picked up the speed of my steps i realized that it was the last piece of the ledge...should i jump?will i survive?*speechless*...will something so good cost me my life?*take a deep breath*

>>SKIP<<

i skipped the song...

slow haunting songs are really bad to hear in the car..especially at nights..hmmm...