how to help a friend?

do nothing

sometime around this hour next week i would be arriving in delhi. quite a scary thought to be honest. well maybe the word to use is not scary, more of nervous since there are so many uncertainties thrown into the equation. my boss not being there, the vp being there (!), meeting the people i've been liaising for a month and a half now. hope everything goes as planned...

anyway last sunday i was having another one of those long chats with my friend about life, his life mostly. seems like he's in one big junction, just graduated and what's next? hmmm~ yeah what's next. the newspaper repeatedly mentions that the job market is very hot but there are still people who are having difficulties, even clinching the first step of an interview invitation.

sometimes what you need is to let go... there are so many things that we want, so many things we wish to achieve but i think in order to get the first step in those junctions there are times when you just need to close your eyes and pray that your decision is the right one. i'm probably one of those people who dislike uncertainty, usually i'll prepare a list of things to hedge against these uncertainties in case they go horribly wrong. unfortunately (or maybe fortunately) in life, there are those moments whereby your list is basically redundant.

there are times when we worry. worry of failing. worry of not achieving the expectations set. worry of disappointments. worry that we make the right decisions.

i was just sitting down by the pool just now thinking who actually judges if a decision is right or wrong? you will only know if your pick is right/wrong when you have close the last chapter of your life i think. failures and losers. who created them? who named them? each and everyone of us is one at least at one point of time in our lives. those unfortunate moments only make you savour the success even more~

don't worry of disappointing other people, worry if you might disappoint yourself. just do what you feel right, pray on it and never look back. the biggest disappointment in life might be regret. so just stick to your decision and push through. consistency is the key. and don't forget in those moments when you're most fragile - learn to let go.....

crazy about peanuts

do you read peanuts? strangely i find this comic quite an interesting read. the characters (albeit their age) are rather realistic and you can find yourself laughing at the similarities the situations in the strip with your own life sometimes.


i'm probably like charlie brown with his bad habit of kicking a fuss out of nothing hehe~ but i do so wish i am more like linus that has a blanket to rub his face upon every now and then. hmmm but we all DO have our very own security blanket that we hug every time we feel unsure of ourselves don't we? *think*

Dumb Dumb Dumb Dumb (that's 4D)

why do they call it 4D anyways?

goodness, i just realized that it's been 2 months since i updated the blog. i did have a few thoughts i wanted to write but was too busy and or too tired to even on my laptop. so just a short recap of my life, i just accepted a job in a (decent? haha) consumer electronics company not too long after my bunny dream.

so strange isn't it? i was reading my old post about the bunny dream and true enough i was accepted. my friends and i even joked about wanting to borrow my bunny for their dreams to get their jobs soon too haha~ but if you start thinking that dreams are accurate, think again. about a month ago i dreamt of numbers (yes, a set of 4 numbers!) and harlow in singapore it only tells you about one thing

so there i was stupidly sitting in my bed, quickly saving the 4 numbers in my handphone (in case i forget <-- typical kiasu 'tude! hah!) after pestering risky to help me buy the supposed lucky numbers, i was thinking to myself hmmm i wonder how much will i win? errr..... i was THAT confident ok haha~

so now a month later and $5 poorer (and yes i still owe you the cursed $5, mr risky) i realize that we don't depend on dreams. mostly they remain as that - dreams! the ones that really happen are just sheer coincidence i guess.

but a friend asked what if i dream of another set of 4 numbers again? errrr.... *grin*

part of the puzzle

i'm still searching for my part in my new job. maybe it's the feeling of insecurity? or it might just be for my own self indulgence? i always like to know that i'm a part of the puzzle. at the moment i'm still finding out which place do i belong to but i can feel that i'm slowly shaping towards the (supposed) right direction. is it the direction that i want though? i wonder~ i seriously wonder hmm~

some people say they love their jobs so much, they wake up excited going to work. at the moment i'm not feeling it yet *sigh* not that i drag myself out of bed to get to work though but i somehow feel that i can do so much more than just this. but trust must be earned and probably the company needs time to see how i really tick. maybe in due time, more responsibility will be passed to me?

the art of giving~

love don't cost a thing? that is so passe, i was listening to my friend's story about her boyfriend and her. how odd. can you buy some love? apparently now you can hmmm~

if you ask me if i'm willing to spend for my girlfriend (hold your horses people, this is under an assumption IF i have one) of coz i am. in fact it's a guy's pride to buy something nice, a gift, something of value to a loved one but we should remember that thin line when the act of giving is something to make your significant other happy or the gift itself.

do you agree with me? no? why do you think i'm still single? hrmph! -_-"

falling ill

second time in my one month stint in the new company :(

am i that weak? i wonder~